Do I love my wife

Without a doubt, the politically correct answer has to be "yes". And in fact, yes.

However, I do cherish this rare opportunity of short term separation after 6 yrs of marriage. We call ourselves conjoined twins, as we do things together to such an extent; life with wife is good. In this good life, a creepy shadow, however, does haunt me from time to time; and now I know it's the longing for loneliness; I used to have a lot of that.

Loneliness is good.

Dreams are different. When we were together, the dreams are like drop dead together, or living in a cozy little house with separate attic rooms setup for painting, darkroom, studio etc. Everything in those dreams involve two people, and exactly two. One definite thing that is not in the dream is kids, which we plan to have none.

Now alone, the horizon in dreams is totally different. Having more time to spare, scenes of the long lost dreams I had when alone are regurgitated, with all these years' annotation on it. It's heart wrenching to see those old dreams drifting away further and further to an unreachable distance; they are good, but probably would never work out in my life time. There are, however, some salvageable pieces. Noting those down here probably is not appropriate, but surely I am happy to be digging those out and give them a new chance.